What’s the point of a mother if she’s the point of your self destructions…the one who’s suppose to hide how terrible the world is. Is the one who shows you what a dark cruel place it is.. But then she shows you love..and tenderness making you believe she does love you and you can’t hate her. But then she uses that and shows you how worthless you are..how useless.. How stupid…and makes you feel so low you feel like if you went to sleep and didn’t wake up it’d be best for everyone… A mother that shows you no matter how sweet things look or how nice someone is they WILL hurt you. Wether it takes a week..to 40 years. They will break your heart and you’ll be left to handle it your self cause when it gets down to it. That’s all you have. Yourself. And your mind. And your heart. And the more you trust the less of those your gonna have..I’m 15 and that is what life has taught me.
me watching someone not drinking their drink when i’m really thirsty
i honestly just need someone to come into my life that really genuinely cares about me and wants to sit and have long conversations about things that actually matter and wants to go on adventures late at night and wants to be there for me at my lowest points and celebrate with me at my highest points and just be the rock that keeps me going when life gets rough